I have. I get it occasionally, and not just with others, but also with myself.
Sometimes, when I am afraid or feeling vulnerable, I like to tell stories or make excuses, and they are usually the same ones. They sound like this in my mind, "I'm too busy to do that. I don't have the time or money to go there. I will fail and people will think less of me. I'll be disappointed so why bother." Do you do this? Do you repeat these crappy lines of doubt and plant seeds of defeat inside of your mind so you don't feel too badly when you don't do something? I do.
The funny thing is, the universe and creator, don't "like" these stories or feelings because they know ME. They see and feel the true and authentic energy of my soul, and they want me to know that self and to BE IT and LIVE IT. (Please note, I don't think the universe or creator "like" or "dislike," anything. I believe they just know and want to support my highest and greatest self.) So...they keep helping me create situations, over and over, which force me to choose. To decide between what is known but contracting and what is unknown and expanding. I have to consciously say, "I am ready. I no longer want to repeat this experience, and am willing to take a risk and do something differently because I BELIEVE it will shift my energy and path."
That's why I like this saying. It makes me laugh at the situation and opens me to the deeper motives of my heart.
Once I recognize the fabrication, I remind myself to pause and reflect on what is really happening. Why is the situation playing over in my life, head or heart and what can I DO about it?
Sometimes, I am not ready to do anything, so I honor that place. I hold myself and my fear until it unclenches and I can feel the tension in my shoulders and belly dissolving. Other days, I am more than ready to wing those feelings off on the breath of the wind so they can settle into a supple fold of the earth and be recycled.
If you are struggling with a repeating pattern or problem in your life, I encourage you to sink into an emotional lull...to rock and sway and feel your breath steadying and slowing until you are more calm and collected. Then, take time to explore the story of your Deja Moo.
I send you blessings and energy for the courage to be YOU.
Jen Martin is a Mom, Medium and Movement Person. She uses her intuitive abilities and training in yoga, prenatal yoga, meditation, and business to help others appreciate and help themselves. If you have kids, like hearing from loved ones in spirit or enjoy taking heart-centered yoga and meditation classes, check out Jen's blogs.