Every day I Get to choose...

Each morning and moment I am presented with the opportunity to choose who and what I am feeding in my life. 

I think everyone I know has heard the tale of the two wolves--the good and the bad and how it matters to whom you are giving emotional sustenance.  Am I waking up with anger and frustration?  Chances are, if I am, I will probably attract and look for more things about which to find fault and complain throughout the day.  I feed THOSE feelings of inadequacy, comparison, emotional neglect and disgruntlement, and within this heartspace of hurt, I can birth and strengthen a wolf of fear and anger. 

However, if I awake and consciously choose to look for the beauty, the love, the miracles and joy, then I manifest and feed the wolf within who protects and honors the same things in life.  It is a beautiful and powerful story of creation and personal responsibility.  No one else is responsible for what I am creating in my life.  Even when challenges happen or disappointment comes to my doorstep, I can decide the story I am going to tell and which main character I will emulate--the "hero" or the "villain."  

Some mornings, it can be a challenge to get up out of bed and see the sun shining, the food in the cupboards and the gift of those I love resting peacefully nearby.  I am human and have an ego.  These are the days when I get back to the basics of being still, building body awareness and breathing.  They are powerful tools to find your way back to the pack of gratitude. 

First, I sit someplace peaceful and quiet.  If I can, I go outside near the earth.  Being still to me, means no distractions of computer, TV, radio, children, etc...AND it may only be for a few minutes of time.

Next, I internally scan my body to notice HOW I am feeling.  Is there pain anywhere, do I feel emotional or restless, and is my mind chattering away and WHOSE voice and words are really speaking?  I practice observation and non-judgment during this time and I MEAN PRACTICE.  There is no perfect way when I practice.  There is only the doing over and over until it becomes more ingrained in my psyche.

Finally, I take deep, slow breaths.  I like to inhale through my nose, pause and hold my breath for a moment and then open my mouth and exhale deeply--sighing like the wind blowing through the trees.  I do this for a few moments, envisioning my feet growing roots and settling further into the earth and myself.  I feel better and am able to lovingly feed the gentle, playful and compassionate she-wolf within. 

I invite you to practice these same techniques and see who you wind up wanting to feed inside of you.

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